the husband doesn't know it yet, but the ceiling in our downstairs hallway is now white. instead of pale see-through yellowish white with big yellow marks. it looks very much better now :)

i think i might actually be working too much, by the way. i always complain about working too much, but now i think it's for real. i have a lump in my throat, and i can't sleep, and i constantly think about work even if i try my best not to, and i'm so so tired and sometimes i just want to cry. it's a good thing the vacation is coming closer! i cut work a couple of hours earlier this afternoon, and even though the sun was shining and i have flowers to move around in the garden and lovely little plants to move to bigger pots and lovely little sun cats who'd enjoy cuddling on the lawn with me i just sat in the coach, staring at the tv not being able to think of anything to do.

after taking the pup for a walk i started painting the ceiling, and then i went on to two chests of drawers, and then i had a bath, and now i feel much much better. i wonder if it's too late to start working in the garden? or maybe i should watch doctor house? or maybe write just a few lines on the report, so i can focus on the interviews tomorrow, so i'll be prepared on monday when i will hopefully get to talk to that man, who hopefully knows what he's talking about, so i don't have to start looking for somebody else again, so i can finish the report as soon as possible, hopefully no later than thursday morning, so that when that other man comes back from his vacation on friday i can just talk to him quickly and add whatever news comes up in the report, so i can deliver the report the same day...but that woun't work if i have to go to stockholm to present it. o gosh i hope i can start my vacation the next monday!

i want the husband to come home, so i can think about something other than work!  ¶ 8:01 PM