i am now bob-less... :( 10-15 minutes after the playing in the snow yesterday his legs or back or something started to hurt. a lot. and he couldn't stand on his hind legs. the vet said it could be a slipped disc in his back, but she wasn't sure. whatever it was i didn't find the decision too difficult. i've never seen him in so much pain before, and i never want to see it again. so all the crying and head ache is just for me, not for him. i don't think he could have ended his life in a much better way than he did. tap dancing and singing in the morning, running up our hill on his old legs, some left-over minced meat for breakfast... but even though i'm glad for him, that he didn't have to suffer a lot, and that he could be happy all the way to the end, i can't stop crying. i saw myself in the mirror this morning, and i promise it wasn't a pretty sight...  ¶ 8:31 AM