today i noticed that it's not only our neighbours that have some ice in their lake. we have it in ours too! but only in the upper half, our half is still "iceless".

i'm both dreading and looking forward to the lake turning into ice... i'm curious about what it will look like. this is the first time in my life that i have water right outside my window, so that i can follow it's freezing process from scratch (as i did with the breaking of last years' ice only a few months ago...). and i'm looking forward to being able to walk on it again. but having the lake turned into ice also means a looong loong winter...

it's not so much the cold that i'd like to wait a little longer, it's the darkness i can't stand. i've been trying to convince myself that it's cosy, and to light candles and read books and drink tea and to sit under heavy blankets in the sofa, but nothing helps. i still can't stand the darkness. i hate eating breakfast when i can't even see the treas outside, and i hate having darkness surrounding the house from all sides. and this year i don't even have a bathtub :(  ¶ 10:51 PM