during one of today's dog walks i felt that there was something missing, and after a while i realised what it was: i couldn't feel my back. i had forgotten that when there's no pain in the back you can't feel it... and the weird thing is; i almost missed it! i would almost have preferred a slight ache, to remind me that the back was still there :). i had left my belt at home, because i wasn't going for a very long walk, and i don't really like strapping myself up in it all the time, so i didn't even feel the stiffness of the leather against my hips.

i thought about this for a while, and decided that i can feel most parts of my body even though they're not hurting: the face feels the wind and the ears feel the cold, my chest and shoulders feel the weight of the jacket, and my arms feel the fabric as i move them back and forth, my legs feel the fabric of the jeans, the feet feel the ground and the hands feel the dog's leash and the cold. the only parts of my body i can't feel if they are not hurting are my head, my back and my stomach. i wonder if that's the reason why almost everytime there's a pain in my body it's in one of these three parts?...

after a while my back started acheing again, so everything was back to normal. only this time i missed the feeling of *not* feeling it... it's not easy to keep me satisfied :)  ¶ 8:10 PM