the oldest little sister and the youngest little cocker spaniel came to visit us a few days earlier this week. that was nice. i wish they could live a little closer. the pup liked having a baby around to play with, and eventually even decided it was ok to have him in the house. he even came with us for a walk with the racing girls, and invented a new technique to walk down snowy hills. the girls thought he was scary though, and didn't want to let him come too close :)  ¶ 5:51 PM

  aaaaaargh!!! i'm so ANGRY i want to hit someone! and i know exatcly which one! NOBODY should be mean to my sisters. i wish i was a karate expert... shitty shitty winter!!!  ¶ 9:39 PM

  the n is still dying. according to her family she is almost gone now. i don't think she should be allowed to die without me. i would like to be there, to read to her from her maeve binchy library and have afternoon tea in bed and watch ice skating and laugh when they fall on their glittery little behinds. and i would finally win all our arguments as she doesn't speak anymore. she doesn't read either, which is much much weirder. the n is the definition of reading! we always discuss flowery summery beautiful novels. writing letters feels strange now. it feels like i'm writing to her daughter, with the n as some kind of third person. not personal enough. and not time enough either. sending letters on fridays now feels scary. so much time to die before it reaches her. and she never got to go to russia. shitty shitty winter!  ¶ 7:19 PM

  this is a shitty winter. people i love die. dogs i love die. and dogs that people i love love die. even the car died...  ¶ 7:52 PM

  it's cold. really really cold! this must be the coldes winter in the history of man, or something. today the car gave up and refused to start (which was quite nice, cause then i got to work from home, under a warm cosy blanket in the sofa), my cheeks are cracking up with cold, my hands are almost falling off, my thighs are constantly red and the cats are angry and upset cause they can't go outisde. the only one (and only thing) that remains unaffected is the pup. he doesn't even seem to notice the cold. weird little creature.  ¶ 7:24 PM